Last night I had a dream of meeting my previous employer and his business partner. Just so you know, I had hard feelings towards them in the way they treated their employees, and when I saw them I was going through a big transition in my life, so it felt like a very big let down.
I could still feel my sense of anger in that dream, but to my surprise we were having conversation about work and it felt like everything was OK -- and I left that room thinking that everything was fine.
When I woke up, I saw a message from an old friend of mine. We were friends for a long time before things got really heated as I hopelessly made him my punch bag during my depression days and he just couldn't take it anymore so he decided to call it quits and so I agreed.
I did say sorry numerous times to him, but deep down in my life I could still feel the scars of rejection and also the failures for treating my friend with such disrespect.
I opened the message. It was sent at 5:29am in the morning. He wishes that things are OK with me, and he took a picture of a mug that has been used for soup. That was the very mug I gave him on our last Christmas together.
I can't help but thanking the Lord at that second as I really took it as an apology received since I haven't heard from him for months after I last texted him.
During my morning devotion, the bible struck me with this verse:
"You shall give to him freely, and your heart shall not be grudging when you give to him, because for this the Lord your God will bless you in all your work and in all that you undertake."(Deuteronomy 15:10 ESV)
I was very grateful that at the very moment He classified these things I have been feeling as "grudges", He also gave me the strengths and the avenue to make it all better.
It really made my day and I once more understand that "nothing is wasted --- (that He makes) all things for good." (Nothing is Wasted - Elevation Worship)
