Last night as I was lying on my bed looking for something to listen to before I fell asleep, I stumbled upon this podcast called The Mental Illness Happy Hour.
Having looked at the description of the podcast and browsed their episodes, I decided to download one that talks about loneliness.
The host read some of the messages sent by the listeners in regards to loneliness. These messages were so graphic, it was hard for me not to be responsive upon hearing them.
"I feel terrified, petrified in my loneliness -- abandoned like I could die right here in my big empty apartment and nobody would even know until the neighbours started complaining about the smell."
"I just feel like the worst person in the world when I tell (my best friend) how I feel because I feel like I am dragging her down with me even if when she insists she wants to be there for me."
"I can only hate myself that much more for being this great big black hole, sucking the life, energy and happiness out of everyone and everything around me -- and then I feel like a self-centred f*ck for thinking that I could make that much of an impression or dent in someone else's life, when really I'm just a pathetic, inconsequential waste of space."
"I feel sad, lonely... I am supposed to feel good for being single and "free", but I feel lonely... and worry that nobody would ever truly love me without my having to pretend I am someone else."
I am very thankful that I can personally relate to many of these messages, and for them to have the audacity to share these feeling of theirs to seek help, knowing full well that their stories are very much subject to more hatred and isolation.
If you are interested in listening to this podcast, visit http://mentalpod.libsyn.com/
Saturday, April 5, 2014
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